Why so much effort?

After some soul searching and a small amount of heartache I got the idea to sell my beloved G Force 😢

It’s not because I don’t like riding or the bike – we all know by now that is not the case. My reason is because I have developed as far as I can and the frustration of not being able to grasp even some of the most basic techniques in riding is crushing my soul.

What has always been my happy place (riding) is now an additional source of self loathing and not feeling good enough. Those who know me personally also know that sums up my whole life thus far but from a motorcycling perspective it’s magnified about 1,000 times.

Part of the issue is I love riding with my Mr. He is by far my favourite person to ride with and currently the ONLY person I actually do ride with. I don’t do my little group rides anymore, I barely ride with any other mates, I don’t do the random group rides either.

The problem of riding with Mr is he outperforms me in every way on a bike, heck on everything except maybe typing speed and accuracy 😂. He has a permanently paralysed shoulder, it makes no difference he whips my ass at everything. Which I don’t have an issue with, I’m not competitive, doesn’t bother me in the least and I certainly don’t consider it an attack on my manhood. He has been riding a lot longer than me I’d expect him to be much better.

But when we ride together I’m acutely aware he wants to go and can go a lot faster. Sometimes I can accommodate just anywhere on the mountains / twisties if he goes behind I hold him up and if he goes in front approximately 2 corners in we are both riding alone 🤦🏻‍♀️

This has been ongoing. I had hoped as I moved through my riding experience on G Force it would get better. It’s gotten bloody worse and I don’t know why. Overthinking? 90% chance. And he says all the right things ‘you’re not slow’, ‘I just like riding together’ & ‘you are good / fast enough’. But I know I’m not and it’s affecting me to the point all the joy of riding has gone.

So I tried to sell the bike, asked Mr what a fair price was given the high kms (92,000) and age (2012) and condition (fair to good not great or excellent), listed on Marketplace and let the buyers roll in.

And roll in they did. Over 200 replies, I realised shit I’ve priced too low which Mr later confirmed he was being a bit sarcastic when he gave me the figure 🤦🏻‍♀️. I don’t have enough knowledge of second hand bikes to know better however was soon fielding offers of $2000-$4000. That is where the shit hit the fan.

Extremely rude and demented people on the listing being absolute dicks, reporting me to FB as a scammer. Low ball and insulting offers via PM. Pushy wankers who I told 2.30pm Sunday is the earliest to view. Nope that wasn’t good enough, they demanded sooner. All the sob stories under the sun; I have no care if you weren’t insured and crashed or it’s your dream bike or you need it for work or you want to upgrade or whatever whatever.

I just wanted to sell it, I didn’t want to have to repeat the same details on the listing. Read the f*#%$@g listing. I wasn’t doing holds or deposits and told several people this is not safe and how they will get ripped off. I work in finance and risk, I’m acutely aware how easy to see your $$$ disappear in an instant.

With the ad going to shit and the PM queries not much better I pulled the listing. Fuck it, too hard basket. Off to tell nearly 300 people the bike was no longer for sale due to behaviour of “buyers” being cockheads.

Most people were fine they saw the comments on the listing and they understood how untenable the sale had become. Price something fairly, not like the 2004 CBR1000 with 80,000kms on it in very average condition for $12k 😂😂😂

A wide selection were the following:

1. You never wanted to sell it – yeah I did but can’t help little boys on marketplace not being able to contain their thirst (for the bike and only the bike)

2. I don’t deserve to get shit on by strangers on the internet for not being a greedy dick profiting on the current stupid bike sales market – but apparently I do for listing on Marketplace

3. I’m a time waster – oh your 4 mins reading my reply vs me replying to 200 people, so fucking sorry for your inconvenience

4. That all the other buyers were shit and they were the only genuine one so sell to them – gee if only I hadn’t heard this 80 times already

Will never use marketplace again, get fucked LOL. And it was all men. I don’t hate men I like them a lot but all the hate was men. 100% of it. Like their toy was suddenly taken away when it wasn’t even guaranteed THEIR toy and they weren’t entitled to feel like I’d gone into a contract with them.

Like I had to feel bad for dashing their dreams. Like I had to feel bad for them that they organised a trailer to collect. Like I had to feel bad that what they wanted was no longer available. Might have told a few of them to absolutely get stuffed and to tell their fellow menfolk to stop being little bitches to women online.

Good news from all of this: zero dick pics received 😂😂😂😂 some of them were guaranteed to get there if I didn’t block them. I am sad to report that since leaving the majority of bike groups I have had NO dick pics. The sad part is not the lack of pics LOL it’s that this kind of indicates where the peeves sending them from originate from. Disappointing bike fams, do better!

So I still have G Force 😭 not entirely unhappy to have retained ownership and have another chance to try and improve. Don’t say I didn’t try to end the misery, I have, failed, resolved to keep pushing on with my endeavour to be a better rider.